Alllll by mysellllllf

   Ryan is out of town for a few days...which means I am hanging out in the house all alone. While a few people might see their partner being away as an opportunity to have some "alone time" or get some kind of project done without distractions, I feel so completely out of it. Ryan is my best friend and my favorite person to spend time with. Even if we're not interacting, I enjoy his presence near me. I'm tearing up realizing that he's not in the room across the hall right now. I feel like a part of me is missing.

   Our party last night didn't end well. I wish I hadn't had so much to drink, but I get super anxious when it comes to hanging out with people, so it's a way for me to deal. Yeah, I know... So now my head hurts and I want to eat nothing but fried eggs covered in hot sauce over runny oatmeal.

   I seriously cannot wait for Ryan to come back. I already feel like I'm losing my mind. I hate to be so reliant on another person for my own happiness/sanity, but...that's how it is. I think I may just crawl up in bed and hide until he gets back.

   Here are some pictures from yesterday. I think I'm really going to go to bed. I'm really mad at myself right now.

setting up our fancy patio furniture

yay!

a lovely mess

cleaner

setting things up

some of the things

love of my life

aw. 

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Welcome to our home!

   My brain has been a bit foggy lately. Earlier today, I fell asleep on the couch after reading a bit about making mortadella in the latest issue of Lucky Peach and woke up feeling much better. I'm slightly disappointed that I didn't dream about forcemeats. There's always next time.

   Since I'd like this space to feature our house a little bit, I've taken a few pictures of the place. Now, I didn't bother to clean up...as I've said, my brain hasn't been up to the task, but it'll give you an idea of what I'm working with. We're having a party Saturday to "warm" the house and celebrate Ryan's 27th birthday, so I'll definitely have it spiffed up by then.

Our house!

The front door!

The couch where I took my nap!

The dining area which has my junk all over it!

The view from the landing. SO GREEN!

Ryan's lovely addition to the curb. 

(He's since corrected his technique.)

   Well, there you have it. I hope to actually post something interesting soon. I made some really interesting pickles the other day and today I made fresh tomato basil hummus that I'm not sure is good...

   Whatever. I'm gonna take a bubble bath.

Inaugural post.

Ryan and I are finally in the same place. There were a few setbacks at first--we didn't have gas hooked up, a few things weren't working correctly--but everything is fine now! I couldn't be happier.

One of the things I was most excited about when building this house was the kitchen. In my previous apartment, I had absolutely no space to cook and bake. It was awful! Well, since we've lived here, I've prepared at least one meal a day. I've also broken in the oven with a batch of oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. I threw together a few pie crusts, too. Not sure if those will be sweet pies or savory quiches, but they're there, ready for me! 

I find myself shopping with a whole new perspective. Decorating was never something I thought about a whole lot. I lived in apartments that I didn't really care about. Now I have a house! I will be living here for quite some time! I want to make it home! I bought a butter dish yesterday. It has a squirrel on it. It is so cute! I'm not in any rush to get this place magazine ready, but it's nice to know that I can dress it up to the nines…assuming Ryan likes it… :)

So, if this goes as planned, I intend to use this space as a place to share what I'm cooking up, art projects, home stuff…maybe what I'm listening to (currently the new Avett Brothers album on NPR)! Who knows. Come back and see what's happening! 

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