Ryan is out of town for a few days...which means I am hanging out in the house all alone. While a few people might see their partner being away as an opportunity to have some "alone time" or get some kind of project done without distractions, I feel so completely out of it. Ryan is my best friend and my favorite person to spend time with. Even if we're not interacting, I enjoy his presence near me. I'm tearing up realizing that he's not in the room across the hall right now. I feel like a part of me is missing.
Our party last night didn't end well. I wish I hadn't had so much to drink, but I get super anxious when it comes to hanging out with people, so it's a way for me to deal. Yeah, I know... So now my head hurts and I want to eat nothing but fried eggs covered in hot sauce over runny oatmeal.
I seriously cannot wait for Ryan to come back. I already feel like I'm losing my mind. I hate to be so reliant on another person for my own happiness/sanity, but...that's how it is. I think I may just crawl up in bed and hide until he gets back.
Here are some pictures from yesterday. I think I'm really going to go to bed. I'm really mad at myself right now.
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| setting up our fancy patio furniture |
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| yay! |
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| a lovely mess |
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| cleaner |
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| setting things up |
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| some of the things |
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| love of my life |
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| aw. |
<3
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